A New Song..... and a little more....

I cry for
a generation
that's lost in you
that lives for truth

holding tight
to the walls around
an unknown sound
hoping to be found

I raise my voice
to overcome
the banging drum
their spiritual hum

and lift my eyes
up to your skies
defeat the lies
I so despise

to realize...

I am yet a child
Lost by all I've seen
Broken down and twisted up
by all that I believe

I'm searching for the answers
I'm praying for a start
that through the clouds of emptiness
I will find your heart

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This is a song that I just wrote tonight. It came tonight when we were having a floor worship session in my dorm. There were twenty some guys all grouped around, praying, singing, dancing; having a focused time of worship. One of the guys stepped up and confronted the group, telling us to lift our prayer language, our tounges, in prayer to God. This was nothing new to me since I do go to Oral Roberts University and I have, for the most part, figured out how to react to these situations but tonight I was siting there, as everyone joined this guy in praying in tounges, and I started to cry. I wasn't sobbing but I began to tear up. Then I realized that this happens everytime I am in a situation where people are praying in tongues. Now throughout my experiences at ORU and other places, I have my figured out where I stand and how I perceive the spiritual gifts, praying in tongues being the focus tonight. I want you to know that I am not at all against it, BUT I do feel that it isn't done right sometimes (I don't want to go into this tonight so I'm keeping this broad, but if you want to talk about praying in tongues or any of the spiritual gifts let me know and I would love to hear what you have to say/ are going through.) So they began to pray I began to sing and the words that were coming out was the same message of my song. I'll break it down a little:

Verse 1:
I was crying for this generation that has such good motives and a desire to be spiritual and holy but they are trying so hard that they might be loosing themselves in their spirituality.

Verse 2:
'Walls around'- just as walls direct the flow in direction, these youth are hanging on to the guidance of their mentors and following their footsteps, even though they might not know what they are doing; in ignorance.

Verse 3:
I would sing louder in an effort to overcome their 'drum' and 'spiritual hum' (their prayer in tongues) that was confusing/distracting me.

Verse 4:
I pray to God for direction and comfort in this situation. I realize my stubbornness to not "go along with the flow" and I state that when i write 'defeat the lies' (how tongues are being used) because I really don't believe that praying in tongues is wrong.

Chorus:
the chorus is basically me realizing that I am wrong in some of my thoughts. I sing, 'Broken down and twisted up, by all that I believe.' I had a friend say a year ago, "it's gonna be funny when we get into heaven. We are all gonna find out that so much of what we believe is right, is totally wrong." The main thing is the realization that I am not right on everything and in that I can't judge others. All I can do is fight through the 'cloud of emptiness' and find God's heart.



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